Baby #2! oh boy

So like the title says, oh boy! I’m pregnant, 8 weeks and 5 days, with baby #2. So far only one baby can be seen. I say that because I have heard so many stories where a lady is pregnant, goes in for ultrasound, and one baby shows up. THEN later down the pregnancy road, BAM! another one shows up on the ultrasound. I don’t think that’ll happen to me but you never know. Knock on wood. Phew.

Yeah, I’m happy about it, even if it was a surprise. Unfortunately, my happiness disappeared as quickly as it was created. Mainly due to my knowing that my fiance wouldn’t be happy and I was correct…for a bit. You see with my first pregnancy, he didn’t express positive feelings or even truly acknowledged it until early into the third trimester. He would be there with me when I went shopping for the baby stuff but he wasn’t really there, mentally. Which caused me some depression. I was happy throughout my whole pregnancy, for the most part. Due to him not accepting, not even acknowledging it, it caused some negative emotions towards my unborn child at the time.

Because of me being pregnant caused him unhappiness, for a few times I wished the pregnancy would disappear, wished for the baby to be gone. As soon as the thought came into my mind, it disappeared and guilt filled me up. I thought that if the pregnancy ended then we would go back to being happy. After the last time the thought came up, I decided if he doesn’t shape up or change his view after our daughter was born, he’s out. I was going to do the whole shabang. *not even sure if that’s how its spelled*. Even though he wasn’t happy about it, he was very caring though. Making sure I rest if I was tired, had food if I was hungry, took over some duties that I did, and etc. Fortunately, he did turned around and started to get excited for our daughter.

This time round, it happened again. He wasn’t happy. He even asked me to consider to abort or adoption. His unhappiness quickly infected my emotions. I started to think about the two options. But I wanted to keep the baby. Then all of my emotions came out. I told him how he left me to suffer alone during my first pregnancy, how he ruined the experience for me. But he came around. He’s actually happy about it. Yeah, he is still worried a little bit but that is due to his anxiety. He’s always making sure I am doing good. Always wants to touch my belly. I can tell he’s happy for this baby. He loves our daughter to death and now he has another one to love. I’m laughing as I type this because I knew his personality from before. Trust me, it’s a complete 360. We are excited for this new child. I even think it’s going to be a boy. It’s just a feeling. We’ll see in a few months.

Can’t wait to share this journey with you. Until next time lovelies!

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50 NEW facts about me

Hello everybody! How have you all been doing? What did you all do for Valentine’s? I think that was the only major holiday for now. My guy took four days off from work and we went SHOPPING! LOL. We went to Japantown SF, movies, went to Santa Rosa Plaza mall, and ate out at restaurants. By the way, I was excited for the Santa Rosa Plaza mall, mainly due to my chocolate covered apple, AKA the Carnival Apple. So good!! Oh and my guy’s Cinnabon cinnamon roll. It’s closest one we have to us. Anyways, it was so much fun. Especially since we rented a car for that week and discovered the next new car we want to get. Anyways, I realize I made a post before on facts about myself. Since its a new year, I decided to write a post about 50 more facts. Why not. So here we go.

  1. I am turning 26 this June
  2. I love the colors white, purple, and grey
  3. I have been in a relationship for nearly 10 years
  4. I like playing tennis
  5. Strawberry is my favorite sorbet flavor
  6. I am currently learning the Japanese language
  7. I am a shoeholic
  8. Verry Berry Hisbicus is my Starbucks drink
  9. Walt Whitman is my favorite poet
  10. I want to get a Leonberger
  11. I like to bake
  12. I like to hike around the Marin Headlands
  13. I wear contacts and glasses
  14. Betsey Johnson is my favorite handbag designer
  15. Kate Spade is my second favorite handbag designer
  16. My shoe size is 8 ½
  17. Watermelon is my fruit
  18. I don’t care for the cold
  19. I like tofu, I really do
  20. My left thumb is double jointed
  21. I’m terrible at doing my own hair
  22. I enjoy being outdoors
  23. For my future, I wish to be able to travel the world
  24. I want to be a big name in the wedding industry
  25. I am a simple person meaning I can be entertained easily
  26. I am not really a drinker
  27. I come up with way too many business ideas for my good
  28. I can go over the top a bunch of times
  29. I like all animals except for cockroaches
  30. I like spicy food
  31. I will order food instead of home cooking when I have off and lazy days
  32. My dream car is not a luxury car, at least not anymore. It’s a Camaro by the way
  33. Dark chocolate over milk anytime
  34. I secretly like the lipstick shopkins
  35. I love to create budgets
  36. I am in the process of entering school for either business or finance
  37. I don’t like to dance very much
  38. I am now only becoming comfortable being my true self
  39. I like colorful makeup
  40.  I am a skincare hoarder
  41. When I am lazy to really cook and don’t want to order food, I make spaghetti *most easy in my opinion*
  42. Also an mug hoarder
  43. And measuring cups/spoons hoarder
  44. I injured my right knee where now its not completely in place and can pop whenever
  45. I think doing squats are actually fun *I know right*
  46. I like doing my fingernails but not my toenails
  47. I am a loud person (ask my family and friends lol)
  48. The person who inspires me is Manoj Bhargava
  49. I am both a morning and night person
  50. I am now starting a Youtube channel with 50 facts about me

That is correct. I am now creating a Youtube channel. I think it will be fun. My first video is 50 facts on me. I am in the process of editing. When it is uploaded, I will add the link to this post. Not only am I starting my own channel but I will start one with my guy and another with my younger sister. I am already working on my next blog posts. Now to kick my behind back to my schedule. I hope you enjoy.

Until next time my lovelies!

 

E-book Step #1

In my previous post, I mentioned about creating and publishing my own e-book. As well as taking you along the trip. Well, all a board! I guess that’s more train related…you get the idea. So obviously before the actual process of creating your e-book, would be to figure out your niche, your subject, on what the book is all about. After figuring that out, then finally start the outlining. So for those that read my post before this one knows I am creating and publishing an e book on special cakes. In this type of e book, my preference would to have pictures of each step by step.

For my first step, I am sketching the cake designs I want to present in my book. Currently, I am still drawing my cake designs. Anyways, in my preference, start drawing out what you would like to be in you book. Like for instance, if it’s a finance book, then what parts of finance you want to write about. In a finance book, there could be family budgeting, taxes, business accounting, regular accounting, how to get rid of debt, etc. You need to figure out exactly what will be involved in your book.

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Before you say or think anything, I know I know. Most beautiful face to be drawn you ever seen. Not! On paper, I am a terrible drawer. As you can tell by my “lovely” eye. Fortunately, I understand my sketchings. That’s not how I normally write by the way but those are just quick notes. I am sketching the designs I want to make and involve in my book. Next to each sketch, I am writing down quick little notes of certain pieces, what it will be made of, what to cover it with, and special effects I want to involve.

That’s it for now. I will be working hard on my first step. So continue to follow along with me on my journey of creating publishing my very own e-book. Thanks for reading.

Until next time Lovelies!!

AT THAT TIME OF THE YEAR…Blogmas #1!

Cold breeze touching the tip of your nose, all wrapped up like a pig-in-a-blanket, sipping hot cocoa by the fireplace, trying to catch those sneaky snowflakes on your tongue, shoved while shopping, etc, ETC. The list goes on but the one thing that nearly everyone does, is making NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS. Oh how…cliche. But everyone has their moments. Like me! Yes, that’s right. I, as in myself and me, am making that cliche. But that cliche is more a timeline for me. Not saying that I haven’t started it now. But I would like to reach my goals by the end of the next new year, 2017!  What, as you ask, are my New Years resolutions? Well….here’s my list *yes, a list, not one but multiple*.

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Alright, so let’s get my most cliche resolution out of the way. I want to lose weight. Sooo unique Yolanda! I know it’s not a bad one but I hear it all the time from people and their resolutions. And I am part of the cliche group, ain’t no shame here though. I am not saying that I am completely unhappy with my physique. I got the rack and the booty. *insert winking emoji*. But in all seriousness, I do want to lose some poundage. I like to play sports and do adventurous activities. I can do pretty good in those but the weight and bad knee (from a incident when I was few years younger) do make some stuff more difficult than they need to be. So this is what I will be doing. I will make posts of how I am losing the weight, that way, maybe it might help you. Also to keep me on track. Well, technically, I want to lose inches. Pounds tend to look different on everyone. My goal to lose 10 inches overall. Keeping it realistic!

Next resolution! Plan, write, and publish my very own traditional hard book and e-book. It will be a step by step baking creations. I love to bake and create unique, crazy sculptures. So I decided to help others learn how to make special cakes without paying a hefty price to get it. Obviously you would need to get the ingredients, that’s a given. There will be a segment where its for kids to do, with very minimal parent assistance like putting it in the oven or melting. Then there is the other part. Cake sculpting! Specialty cakes! Cake Dazzling!! Okay I’m done. Anyways, there will be simple cakes, cake buildings, cake characters and so much more. Princesses, castles, buttercream, lights, OH MY! Yes you read that right, lights. I will even show to add lights to cakes and even show one to two cakes with special effects, like movable parts. I will even show alternatives to certain parts of a cake. Still finishing the outline but getting close. I’ll even write posts during the process. To assist others who are thinking about making their own hard copy and e-book.

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THIRD! Open my own online boutique. I have always wanted to have my own online store. My bigger dream for it is actually to open a store front for it. I like clothes and finding looks I see on celebrities but more budget friendly. I will start out with only women clothes. Then probably add accessories and shoes. Maybe I will even sell kids and men clothes down the line. I think this would be so much fun. I have already chosen not to do dropshipping. I would prefer to carry inventory. Because of this decision, I would start out small then slowly raise up. Just like the other resolutions, I will post about the process. I would like to help people who want to achieve the same resolutions. I want them to know how I am achieving it and avoid making the same mistakes I will probably make. Oh, who am I kidding?! I WILL make mistakes. Now all I got to do is choose the style. Or maybe even go with a little of everything. Probably will go with that. I do like a bit of all styles.

By the way, technically I do not know how this Blogmas works. I know I started late, that’s for sure. I’m not sure of the topics these posts suppose to be but if I am doing it wrong, then….Blogmas, Yolanda style. I really do hope I am doing alright for my first blogmas post. Hopefully I’m doing good. Am I suppose to write a post everyday or what? Or just write posts that are related to the holidays? I think I need to research more. Yup, definitely. By the way, I meant when I wrote that I have already started to work on my resolutions. As I am typing this post, I am working on my cake book.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST! Starting a Youtube channel with my guy and myself. Alright so knowing myself, this is probably not my last resolution. But I do got to limit myself. I really do got a LOT of ideas. You could ask my mother and all of my siblings. I kind of can get out of hand with ideas. But they love me, craziness and all. Plus I am their entertainment. Anyways, back to the youtube idea. My guy and I thought this would be so much fun. We were thinking about doing diys, cooking challenges against each other, testing weird products, trying out unique food and flavors, all kinds of stuff. We are going over what we need to start off with. Also, we decided for our first video to be pancake art. That will be fun. I am better at cooking but he is better at drawing. So it will be interesting to see who will do better. I always wondered if those pancake arts were more for show than to eat. Alright, they are for show but I want to know if they taste good as well. I will link our youtube channel(once it’s created) to my blog for those of you who would be interested and want to see me make a fool of myself. I know I do!

By the way, I do have a surprise for you all and will write the process of dealing with it in the future. Once it becomes official. I will give a hint: the sound rattle, rattle. I hope this post was good for you. I wanted this post to also show that you don’t have to wait until the new year begins to start on your resolutions. And that it is not so crazy to have more than one resolutions. Thanks for reading! Until next time lovelies!!

No Longer Disappearing!

I AM BACK! I apologize for my disappearance from the blog world! Last year I got busy with my sisters’ wedding and then the worst happened. I fell into a whirlwind of despair. I thought I was ready to begin my journey of my true self, unfortunately I wasn’t. I noticed I was letting people get in my way during my journey of self-discovery. No more! I say, NO MORE!

Why should I, along with every one else, care what others think? Are they living my life? Your life? No. I am living mine and you are living yours. I can understand it’s hard to not care of others opinions. But trust me when I say this, it gets easier once you start. At the end of  the day, you want to make sure you don’t regret anything you did during that day. If you based your actions on stranger’s opinions, then those actions were not truly yours.

I believe in knowing your limitations to start the your self-discovery journey. Well, at least the beginning of it. You may be noticing how much negativity there is in you lately. That could be due to surrounding events and/or people. Or it could even be just the actions of strangers that are bringing your glow down. *You read that right, it’s no typo. I wrote “Glow”*. How do you fix it you ask? Well you fix it by…continuing your shine. Sounds hard, right? How do you continue shining when your shine is the light that’s going out? Take this for example:

You see a family on a corner sidewalk with one of them holding a cardboard sign asking for money. Instead of cash, you give them clothes and food. But they say don’t want it, they just need money, offer a job referral, again they dent it and just want cash. Just leave the clothes and food there with them. Don’t worry about it going to waste, they will take it. If they don’t and leave it there, someone else will, someone who needs it more. A large portion of thieves are actually people who truly need the essentials. Unfortunately, the action of thieving can make a good person feel good. Why is that? I don’t know, that depends on the person themselves. Just giving a portion of what you already have can help another live and build up their faith in us, the people, the strangers who walk by them everyday. Just because something or someone brings your shine down, it doesn’t mean its up to them to decide when your light goes way. That is your light, not theirs. To me, the phrase “the sky in the limit” is ridiculous. I interpret that as the same limit as every one else. And that’s boring. Why should my limit be the same as theirs? Why can’t I go higher or vice versa? I believe your own limit is your heart, your spirit. I want to go higher than the sky, and don’t come back down.

Until next time Lovelies!

 

Time for food!

Not only do I like makeup but I like food as well. I mean, who doesn’t? But lately I have been feeling not so well. So I decided to be healthier and eat better. I do exercise already. My eating habits were the bad part that made it difficult for me to lose the weight. But I got to be honest, it is a lot easier if I had support. It is not easy eating better when you’re surrounded by people who aren’t exactly on board with you. I live with other family members along with my fiance and daughter. So I technically cook for two other people. At this moment, my fiance makes more money than so he pays for the groceries. It’s hard to do the shopping when he’s not so…umm…on the same train as I am. It’s hard to cook two different meals at a time. I actually dislike it very much. It takes more of my time away from my family. I hate that.

So I decided to play around with recipes of certain dishes. So far I got a few recipes that they like. Which makes cooking time so much easier. So this post is going to be that. A recipe I made. It’s re-creation of lasagna. Before I give my recipe, I want to mention you can layer either with lasagna pasta or long slices of zucchini.

Vegetable Lasagna

Ingredients:

  • lasagna pasta (1 box)
  • zucchini (2)
  • eggplant (1)
  • celery (3 stalks)
  • mushrooms (10)
  • ricotta cheese (4 cups)
  • Prego sauce (1 jar)
  • spinach (2 cups)
  • shredded mozzarella cheese (1-1/2 cup)

Instructions:

  1. Preheat the oven to 450 degrees
  2. Spray the baking pan or spread a little of olive oil.
  3. Cook the pasta until it becomes al dente.
  4. While pasta is cooking, starting slicing the eggplant and zucchini.
  5. Start chopping the rest of the vegetables.
  6. Drain the pasta
  7. Cover the bottom of the baking pan with the first layer of pasta (or zucchini)
  8. Next, layer the other ingredients like this, or however you like, eggplant, zucchini *if you don’t use it instead of the pasta*, ricotta cheese, mushrooms, tomato sauce, spinach, then pasta, veggies again.
  9. Once you finish layering, finishing by topping it with one last layer of pasta then sauce. Sprinkle the shredded mozzarella cheese.
  10. Place it in the oven and bake for 45-60 mins.

The cheese will brown but you don’t want the cheese to cook too much, then cover with tin foil, with the foil bent a little.

I really do hope you enjoy this recipe. I mean if my fiance likes this vegetarian lasagna, then there’s a high chance a lot of you will like it. Leave a comment if you tried this and let me know how it came out for you. Thanks again for stopping by and reading my blog. Until next time Lovelies!

Hard Decisions

So this could come to a big surprise to my family and friends but….I think I’m deciding to be a stay-at-home mom. Has any of you had to make this kind of decision? To make a decision that can be financially safe and not safe at the same time? I never really understood why ladies would be a stay at home until I got a kid. You don’t even have to be a mom, you can be a stay-at-home wife. Financially, it’s good. By being a stay-at-home mom/wife, you don’t have to worry as  much about gas, making time for friends and family, more time for getting things done, little less stressed, have more time to learn where you can save and find deals, create a closer relationship with your child/children, and and many more benefits. Now I’m not saying there aren’t any cons with being a SAHM/SAHW. You and your family are living on one income, as a whole family you won’t be able to do as much exciting because there is a budget, sometimes money-fights will happen between you and your spouse, less adult interaction, worry about making breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and many more. But being a SAHM/SAHW is what you make of it. You can find groups for you and/or child. You don’t need to really have much money, or even none at all, to go out and enjoy the day. I can go with my daughter and spend the day just window shopping. Make lunch, take it with you, and have a picnic. Learn a new craft, you can even get your friends involved and make a little party of it. Even rekindle an old hobby of yours. There are so many things you can do at home. You can do something to earn some side cash or even earn a full-time income. You can most definitely focus on building on an idea. All I can say is look at your finances and check if it’s possible. Also see what you can cut down on or even cut out completely. Now I’m not a financial advisor or anything like that, that’s just what I did. Until next time, my Beauty Lights!