Baby #2! oh boy

So like the title says, oh boy! I’m pregnant, 8 weeks and 5 days, with baby #2. So far only one baby can be seen. I say that because I have heard so many stories where a lady is pregnant, goes in for ultrasound, and one baby shows up. THEN later down the pregnancy road, BAM! another one shows up on the ultrasound. I don’t think that’ll happen to me but you never know. Knock on wood. Phew.

Yeah, I’m happy about it, even if it was a surprise. Unfortunately, my happiness disappeared as quickly as it was created. Mainly due to my knowing that my fiance wouldn’t be happy and I was correct…for a bit. You see with my first pregnancy, he didn’t express positive feelings or even truly acknowledged it until early into the third trimester. He would be there with me when I went shopping for the baby stuff but he wasn’t really there, mentally. Which caused me some depression. I was happy throughout my whole pregnancy, for the most part. Due to him not accepting, not even acknowledging it, it caused some negative emotions towards my unborn child at the time.

Because of me being pregnant caused him unhappiness, for a few times I wished the pregnancy would disappear, wished for the baby to be gone. As soon as the thought came into my mind, it disappeared and guilt filled me up. I thought that if the pregnancy ended then we would go back to being happy.Β After the last time the thought came up, I decided if he doesn’t shape up or change his view after our daughter was born, he’s out. I was going to do the whole shabang. *not even sure if that’s how its spelled*. Even though he wasn’t happy about it, he was very caring though. Making sure I rest if I was tired, had food if I was hungry, took over some duties that I did, and etc. Fortunately, he did turned around and started to get excited for our daughter.

This time round, it happened again. He wasn’t happy. He even asked me to consider to abort or adoption. His unhappiness quickly infected my emotions. I started to think about the two options. But I wanted to keep the baby. Then all of my emotions came out. I told him how he left me to suffer alone during my first pregnancy, how he ruined the experience for me. But he came around. He’s actually happy about it. Yeah, he is still worried a little bit but that is due to his anxiety. He’s always making sure I am doing good. Always wants to touch my belly. I can tell he’s happy for this baby. He loves our daughter to death and now he has another one to love. I’m laughing as I type this because I knew his personality from before. Trust me, it’s a complete 360. We are excited for this new child. I even think it’s going to be a boy. It’s just a feeling. We’ll see in a few months.

Can’t wait to share this journey with you. Until next time lovelies!

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No Longer Disappearing!

I AM BACK! I apologize for my disappearance from the blog world! Last year I got busy with my sisters’ wedding and then the worst happened. I fell into a whirlwind of despair. I thought I was ready to begin my journey of my true self, unfortunately I wasn’t. I noticed I was letting people get in my way during my journey of self-discovery. No more! I say, NO MORE!

Why should I, along with every one else, care what others think? Are they living my life? Your life? No. I am living mine and you are living yours. I can understand it’s hard to not care of others opinions. But trust me when I say this, it gets easier once you start. At the end of Β the day, you want to make sure you don’t regret anything you did during that day. If you based your actions on stranger’s opinions, then those actions were not truly yours.

I believe in knowing your limitations to start the your self-discovery journey. Well, at least the beginning of it. You may be noticing how much negativity there is in you lately. That could be due to surrounding events and/or people. Or it could even be just the actions of strangers that are bringing your glow down. *You read that right, it’s no typo. I wrote “Glow”*. How do you fix it you ask? Well you fix it by…continuing your shine. Sounds hard, right? How do you continue shining when your shine is the light that’s going out? Take this for example:

You see a family on a corner sidewalk with one of them holding a cardboard sign asking for money. Instead of cash, you give them clothes and food. But they say don’t want it, they just need money, offer a job referral, again they dent it and just want cash. Just leave the clothes and food there with them. Don’t worry about it going to waste, they will take it. If they don’t and leave it there, someone else will, someone who needs it more. A large portion of thieves are actually people who truly need the essentials. Unfortunately, the action of thieving can make a good person feel good. Why is that? I don’t know, that depends on the person themselves. Just giving a portion of what you already have can help another live and build up their faith in us, the people, the strangers who walk by them everyday. Just because something or someone brings your shine down, it doesn’t mean its up to them to decide when your light goes way. That is your light, not theirs. To me, the phrase “the sky in the limit” is ridiculous. I interpret that as the same limit as every one else. And that’s boring. Why should my limit be the same as theirs? Why can’t I go higher or vice versa? I believe your own limit is your heart, your spirit. I want to go higher than the sky, and don’t come back down.

Until next time Lovelies!

 

Time for food!

Not only do I like makeup but I like food as well. I mean, who doesn’t? But lately I have been feeling not so well. So I decided to be healthier and eat better. I do exercise already. My eating habits were the bad part that made it difficult for me to lose the weight. But I got to be honest, it is a lot easier if I had support. It is not easy eating better when you’re surrounded by people who aren’t exactly on board with you. I live with other family members along with my fiance and daughter. So I technically cook for two other people. At this moment, my fiance makes more money than so he pays for the groceries. It’s hard to do the shopping when he’s not so…umm…on the same train as I am. It’s hard to cook two different meals at a time. I actually dislike it very much. It takes more of my time away from my family. I hate that.

So I decided to play around with recipes of certain dishes. So far I got a few recipes that they like. Which makes cooking time so much easier. So this post is going to be that. A recipe I made. It’s re-creation of lasagna. Before I give my recipe, I want to mention you can layer either with lasagna pasta or long slices of zucchini.

Vegetable Lasagna

Ingredients:

  • lasagna pasta (1 box)
  • zucchini (2)
  • eggplant (1)
  • celery (3 stalks)
  • mushrooms (10)
  • ricotta cheese (4 cups)
  • Prego sauce (1 jar)
  • spinach (2 cups)
  • shredded mozzarella cheese (1-1/2 cup)

Instructions:

  1. Preheat the oven to 450 degrees
  2. Spray the baking pan or spread a little of olive oil.
  3. Cook the pasta until it becomes al dente.
  4. While pasta is cooking, starting slicing the eggplant and zucchini.
  5. Start chopping the rest of the vegetables.
  6. Drain the pasta
  7. Cover the bottom of the baking pan with the first layer of pasta (or zucchini)
  8. Next, layer the other ingredients like this, or however you like, eggplant, zucchini *if you don’t use it instead of the pasta*, ricotta cheese, mushrooms, tomato sauce, spinach, then pasta, veggies again.
  9. Once you finish layering, finishing by topping it with one last layer of pasta then sauce. Sprinkle the shredded mozzarella cheese.
  10. Place it in the oven and bake for 45-60 mins.

The cheese will brown but you don’t want the cheese to cook too much, then cover with tin foil, with the foil bent a little.

I really do hope you enjoy this recipe. I mean if my fiance likes this vegetarian lasagna, then there’s a high chance a lot of you will like it. Leave a comment if you tried this and let me know how it came out for you. Thanks again for stopping by and reading my blog. Until next time Lovelies!

New beginning!

As I am sitting here and typing this, I am not sure how I want my words to come out. Hopefully this post will have most of what I wanted to say. So here goes! So lately I have been not so happy with my weight. Even if I the type of person my friends think I am. The type where I won’t notice your looks until much much MUCH later. I pay more attention to your personality. But I am still human. There are times where I am upset of how I look. There are times where none of us can help but nick pick at the little things about ourselves. So we do what we can to fix and perfect the things. I do wish sometimes where I was more toned, not skinny, but more toned.

I do things, like a lot of people who want to lose weight, and try lots of techniques to lose the weight. I am not saying I’ve tried to starve myself because lord knows I would not last. I would rather eat any type of food than starve myself. There should never be a time in your life where you turn to starvation. I’m sorry but that is stupid! But at the same time, I have tried something’s people would consider starving myself but starving yourself means barely eating anything. I will admit I have done the “Military Diet” which is not so favorable with a lot people. Here’s thing, I did the actual original “Military Diet” and not the plan you see more often. The plan I did had more to eat. From that diet, I found a new desert. Half cantaloupe with 1/2-1 cup of vanilla ice cream. That is so good! πŸ˜‹.

I will say this. You can lose weight just by eating healthier but you won’t get the results you would get from both eating right AND exercising. I have always known it’s not good to yo-yo diet but I have had dark times. Sometimes you just get so desperate, you’ll do anything. I am here to tell you it will get better. I promise. You will have a moment where you’ll realize you can do it and overcome the feelings of desperation. So recently I have started eating a lot healthier. I mean I actually already ate pretty good. For me it was portion control, skipping meals, and eating late. That’s where I had the problems. I have learned how to become better at those plus eating moreΒ healthier.

I recently bought a exercise guide. I discovered this creator from Instagram. I like that the exercises she has in her book do not require equipment. They are easy to do at home, I don’t have to do them at the gym. Also the fact that my little girl likes to join me during it. Kids really do follow by example. For some reason it is easier to follow the guide than the others. You should check her website out. alexajeanbrown Β Β Her name is Alexa Jean Brown. Her ebooks are great! I have bought her “Sore to the Core” and “Butt and Leg”Β , both are 30-day challenges. I love it! I hope you guys give her a chance and try her ebooks.

I hope this encouraged someone to better their lifestyle. I can’t wait for you all to join me in the journey of reaching our goals. I hope you reach….actually scratch that….I know you can do it and wait for you to reach it.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog. Until next time Lovelies! πŸ’‹

Hair Treatment Review!

So lately I have been losing hair. My hair has been thinning out. Every time I brush or just run my fingers through my hair, I can literally say the amount that falls out, I can make about 2-3 big fluffy powder brushes. yup, that much. What was even worse was that I was stressing out causing more hair to fall out. I just couldn’t figure out the cause for my terrible hair loss. I’ve tried so many multiple hair treatments. None of them just didn’t seem to work. I even lessened my use of hot styling tools. I barely use them anymore. I might pass them on to family and friends. I was just at a loss. I’ll even admit I shed some tears because of it. Also a little frightened. Not knowing the cause, in the back of my mind I was fearing the cause to be an illness.

I’ve been searching high and low for a treatment that would actually work for my depleting hair. I have been lucky so far that I have not gotten any bald spots yet. It has been just trial and error over, over, and over again. I became so exhausted during this process. That is why I was so elated when I finally found this wonder treatment. I have noticed this new line at the stores but I didn’t really think of it. So when I finally gave in and bought it, I was blown away. To say the least. I mean, just after three days, I saw quite a considerate amount of difference. It is the ClairolΒ Hair Food Thickening Hair Treatment Infused with Kiwi Fragrance. It comes in 3.2 fl. oz (95 ml) and got it for $11.99. I bought it at, of course, can you guess where? Target!! That store seems to have become my go to for everything store. Weird I know!

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So this product comes with a pump which sprays. It is paraben free, mineral oil free, and has no preservatives. I know the fragrant is a blend of zesty citrus fruits and, of course, kiwi. The product itself is a liquid form. You can apply it wet or dry. Apply to your roots from the ear line up. Then massage with your fingertips. It does say to spray 15 times but I only did about 10. This is suppose to thicken your hair but also helps it from breakage while still being manageable. This is quite a light formula. It does not weigh down my hair. I love to apply it when my hair is still wet or at least damp. The scent stays on much longer when I do that. It has also helped me with my frizzy strands. That was a bonus because I wasn’t even looking for a solution for that problem. My frizziness doesn’t bother me as much.

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I have been using this treatment now for about two weeks. I barely used half the bottle. I can definitely say that this product works. It has been a miracle product for my hair. It has become thicker, fuller, shinier, and softer. It just feels luxurious. This is by far my favorite hair product. Dare I say, my hair savior. This truly is healthy “food” for my hair. Get it, get it?! See what I did there? lol Yeah, I know Β but I had to. Anyways this is definitely a must “buy and try”. Really you guys! I am really glad that I found this. I was starting to worry that I would have to start taking some supplements. I also want to thank my fiance for pointing it out at Target. Thank you baby! If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have tried it out. Love you! So everyone! Go for it! Get it! Plus the scent is pretty good too. I love it! I hope this works wonders for you all, like it did me. Until next time lovelies!!

Backache!

Sorry I did not make a post for Friday. Actually sorry again but this post won’t be long either. For the past week, I’ve been have bad backache. I have this one knot that is just killing me and my mood. πŸ˜°πŸ˜–πŸ˜«I can barely stand or move without a shock of pain going through my spine. I don’t know what I did but I guess I screwed up. If anyone has a remedy for back pains, please leave a comment down below.

Anyways, Β I decided to play around with one of the new lipsticks I got. Lilac Flush. So I’m just sharing my makeup look I did. My base is Nyx Honey Dew Me Serum, foundation is MAC studio fluid, mascara Maybelline Lash Sensational, eyeliner is Covergirl bombshell liquid in black, eyeshadow is Nyx, eyebrows are Anastasia Beverly Hills dipbrow pomade in dark brown as well as contour/highlight, blush is Milani in Tea Rose, and the Star of the show, lips are Lilac Flush. Here’s my look. I hope I’ll better by tomorrow, especially when I’m going dress shopping with my mom and older sister for her wedding gown. Exciting!πŸ‘°πŸ’Thanks again for stopping and reading! Until next time lovelies!πŸ’‹

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New Year! 2015! New Adventures!

Hello everyone! Hope everyone had a great New Years! πŸŽ‰πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰πŸŽŠπŸŽ‰ 2015!!! What were your plans that day? How did you celebrate? Me? I sat at home on the computer watching the all the parties on the TV with my family. I was just fooling around with my new laptop. Aka, finding and playing games! I was excited and tired at the same time. πŸ˜΄πŸ˜†πŸ˜Œ As much as I would have wanted to go out on New Year’s Eve, I was just tired.

I will admit that I am more than happy that 2014 is over! It was not the easiest year for my family, *moms side*. There were five big milestones last year. Three of them, unfortunately, not the happiest.πŸ˜” That’s all on that subject. The other two was my daughter’s first birthday and baptism.πŸ˜„πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜‡πŸ™ I was more than welcoming for the year 2015. That meant I can release the tension and emotions from last year. I am so glad you’re here, 2015!!!

Even though I made goals for this new year, I still made a New Year’s resolution. And that is to finally start a business I have been wanting to for a while now and strive to make it successful. Also to be able to reach to more readers, make new friends out of them, and add them to my internet family. Did any of you made a New Years resolution?

Btw are you, by any chance, wondering why I’m writing goals and New Years resolution, like they’re different? I don’t do New Years resolution very often because I don’t think you need a holiday for yourself to make a goal. But that’s me. At the same time I think it’s fun to have a goal for only a specific year. I do see it as a challenge to see if I can accomplish what I said I would do.

Next year though, I would love to spend New Year’s Eve in San Francisco. I think it would be fun. I hope I do accomplish my goal this year. Also pray that this year and many more, will be easy for my family. By the way, this weekend I’m going to SacAnime, some anime convention. I’m being dragged along, plus I promised my guy I would go to ONE convention with him. If you can’t tell, I’m not exactly a fan of anime. But to each their own. He likes it so I’m going for him. I want him to continue his interests. If it makes him happy. I guess this year it’s in Sacramento. We’re going to be there for all three days. Well, I guess I’ll go shopping around for one of days. πŸ˜œπŸ˜ŠπŸ’΅πŸ’΅ Until Sunday, thanks for reading and have a good one. Talk to you later, lovelies!πŸ’‹